I'm not sure why I miss her so much now. Maybe it's because this is the time of year she and I started hanging out last year. Maybe it is because So You Think You Can Dance commercials have started airing. Maybe it is because it is beach weather and we went every single Saturday morning to walk on the beach for the last couple of months she was here. Maybe it is because when things with work or my personal life were weird she always knew and listened and waited until I was ready to talk about it.
I also have a bad habit now. She was addicted to Colgate Kiss Me Mint toothpaste. She also likes the bottles rather than the tubes. So every drug store/super center I go into I look for it. I actually found a bottle of it last month. I was stoked. But guess what? I think it has been discontinued. How do you tell your friend who is half way around the world that when she comes back, she will no longer have access to her favorite toothpaste? Or that after this bottle I may not be able to ever ship her any, even in a tube? Is it crazy that I just googled it and I could buy 10 bottles from a store online? And I think I will buy it? Maybe I should get 20 just in case. Does toothpaste have an expiration date?
But the bottom line is I miss her. I feel an emptiness in my life now that I am not sure I have experienced in a long time. And I know that I will see her again. Hopefully on her turf before she comes back here. But if not, then I will see her again. At some point. Until then, I will just trust God with this piece of my life. And know she is safe in His hands. And so am I.