Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Tonight my family said "goodbye" to my Granny. She said "hello" to her eternal life with the Heavenly Father. It's only hard for those of us on this side. We're the ones left with the void in our lives. My cousin and I were talking this afternoon before she passed about the things we never thought. She said she thought our grandparents would just have Alzheimers forever, our moms would take turns living with them, and that's how it would be forever. I mean, after all, grandparents don't leave their grandkids do they? I am facing the reality that if I ever get married or have kids my Granny won't be there. I never thought I'd face a wedding day without my Granny. She's the one who was supposed to tell me not to see or speak to the groom after midnight until I would walk down the aisle. She's the one who would wear the brightest lipstick and the most fragrent perfume. And she'd have to have a new dress. My granny loved her a new dress. But it's not meant to be. Tomorrow I'll get in the car and drive home to a life I've never known. The life of only one grandparent. The life of a Papaw and not a Granny. The life of a 31 year old whose Granny has been taken from her by a disease that is more cruel that can be put into words. You see, I got to go home and tell her goodbye a few days ago. But my Granny, she never got to tell us goodbye. And that hurts a little bit too.
Randomness by Carrie at 11:34 PM