Tuesday, August 24, 2010

I Say Goodbye, You Say Hello

Tonight my family said "goodbye" to my Granny. She said "hello" to her eternal life with the Heavenly Father. It's only hard for those of us on this side. We're the ones left with the void in our lives. My cousin and I were talking this afternoon before she passed about the things we never thought. She said she thought our grandparents would just have Alzheimers forever, our moms would take turns living with them, and that's how it would be forever. I mean, after all, grandparents don't leave their grandkids do they? I am facing the reality that if I ever get married or have kids my Granny won't be there. I never thought I'd face a wedding day without my Granny. She's the one who was supposed to tell me not to see or speak to the groom after midnight until I would walk down the aisle. She's the one who would wear the brightest lipstick and the most fragrent perfume. And she'd have to have a new dress. My granny loved her a new dress. But it's not meant to be. Tomorrow I'll get in the car and drive home to a life I've never known. The life of only one grandparent. The life of a Papaw and not a Granny. The life of a 31 year old whose Granny has been taken from her by a disease that is more cruel that can be put into words. You see, I got to go home and tell her goodbye a few days ago. But my Granny, she never got to tell us goodbye. And that hurts a little bit too.

4 comments:

Grace said...

Carrie, I'm so sorry for your loss. I've had the same exact thoughts that you have. I'll be praying for you and your family. Let me know if there is anything I can do for you.

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Kerri said...

Carrie... I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to lose one of your grandparents. I hope you are comforted in this difficult time by your family, wonderful memories and the knowledge that she is in a better place looking down on you. **HUGS**

Sarah said...

Carrie, this made me cry!! I'm so sorry and I know just how you feel, well sorta. Pa was not at my wedding or knew my kids, and Granma was. But I was more sad when Granma died that Lacy and Isabella never got to enjoy what a fun and loving person she was!! Remember Dot has no pain and she remembers EVERYTHING!! I'm not sure that is good, you could be in trouble!! Haha. But as you lay her to rest I pray for you and your family. If there is anything I can do please let me know!! Love you, Sarah