Wednesday, October 13, 2010
There's a big thing in my life right now that consumes way more of my thoughts than it should. And I pray about it. And I've talked to my friends about it. But unfortunately I'm still a few weeks away from knowing how it is going to turn out. And while I wait it weighs so heavy on my heart. It could be a very good thing or it could be a very bad thing. I try not to dwell on it, and I'm fully prepared for the outcome to be bad. Even though there is a part of me that is hoping for the good. And maybe bad isn't the right word. Because it won't really be bad, it will just leave me sad. I am so hoping for the good, while living in the reality of the sad. And I know that even if I end up sad when the decisions are made, I'll still know I'm right where God wants me and that there are lessons for me to learn in everything I go through. So, may it be good, may it be bad, or may it be sad, let me learn and grow as God intends me to, and may I end up a better person in the end.